This parenthood journey is a wild one. I find myself going from one emotional point to another, in a matter of moments. Yesterday I was lamenting over the loss of control, now my biggest boy is a teenager. Today I find myself in a strange place. Home alone.
Chloe hasn’t been 100% the last couple of days, and given she still had a super high temperature at 4pm yesterday, I called my boss and asked her to fill my shift for today, as it’s just too hard to get someone to come in for a shift at 8am if given no notice! As per “Murphy’s Law”, Chloe woke up bright as a button this morning – temperature long gone and she was keen to go to creche. So I did the usual school run and then dropped Chloe off to her “school”.
Quickly stopped in to the shops to grab a couple of things, a girlfriend popped in for a long overdue coffee (I can offer REAL coffee to friends now we have a machine!), and then SILENCE. I was sitting here at the computer listening. To nothing. No tv, no music, no Dora. Nothing.
|Silence is deafening….|
It was then, the realisation hit, that this would be the norm in a couple of years. Chloe will be off to Kindergarten next year, and then school. And I will be childless five days a week. For the first time in over 15 years! This realisation put me in a little bit of a panic. Strange – I know. But after pottering around and doing a bit of cleaning, washing the dog and eating some lunch – I had nothing to do. Again – strange.
What do Mums do with themselves, five days a week, when there are no kids at home? Will I put Nick Jnr on the tv to keep me company? Will I start asking myself “what have you been doing all day”? Please don’t tell me I’m going to have to go back to full time work again?
|Day 15 – Phone
The rather lonely and not used much home phone. I honestly don’t know why we have one?